April 21, 2018
While working on this quick and dirty exercise, I felt anxious and impatient with the results I was seeing. I was quick to criticize and felt frustrated at my slow progress. I understand that these feelings are common when trying to learn new programs and sometimes a necessary process for growth.
But I think there's a difference between the frustrations of learning and the anxieties that are carried over from our habits from commercial work.
Perhaps over the years of working in this field, I've begun to accept and equate the stresses of the job with the craft itself. As if the act of making these works should be filled with daily stresses from deadlines and pressures of our obligations to The Job.
At that realization, there was a sense of calmness. A freedom to pursue iterations that just felt interesting rather than a constant pursuit for a finished product.
